Contemplative...

Sometimes I wonder how I got here. All this pain I've held on to for far too many years is beginning to surface and honestly, I'm just a mess. I can't get shit figured out in my head. I get so close, then just melt down. My love life..ugh...how can you love someone so much...like seriously some life type shit, but they just bring out the worst in you. I'm so tired of feeling unappreciated. I'm tired of crying. Maybe I'm just too emotional, or maybe I need something more, or maybe...I just need to let it go.